So what matters? Does looks matters? Or does what lies in within matters?
She thinks hard about it, yea looks matters of cause. It matters because by looking at someone and having the feeling of comfortable, then and only then you can open up to someone. But do not get it the wrong way, when she says looks matters doesn’t mean that it must be good look or model type handsome, but instead it’s the looks of a person with sincerity. A form of firm chemistry between two people.
But above all, what lays in between matter the most. How that person is. What he is like when he is around you and without you. The real person behind the physical mask. His heart! That is what matter most. And that’s the reason behind why one can fall in love or be in love with another human being unconditionally and inevitably in love… what really shines is none other than sincere heart.
And so why did she ever broke up with her boyfriend if he’s all that and nice to her. Well, the one mistake that she makes was to only focus on him and the love that she had. Relationship is never meant to be only you and him. Relationship should take into consideration of all the things around it. Relationship must also be of two way communication, two way love and two way interactions. She was too in to her love that she has for him. On the other hand, his feelings were divided into two. His life as a young boy and the life that he has with his girlfriend. He couldn’t blend it together, he couldn’t make decision and commitment to her. He loses and chooses his life down the road of fun and drugs. He betrayed her and broke all the promises that he made to her. He broke her heart.
And now, though it’s petty and kind of pathetic, but she keeps liking and having crush with the guy that she sees in the television. Yup, it is pathetic isn’t it? But somehow, no matter how the actor looks like physically, she always end up liking the character in the movies or dramas. It is then that she realizes that, looks doesn’t matter. What matters, is how the person is. The characters were created in such that they possess the things that one’s heart is looking for. That goes the same for real life situation.
You can fall for someone just because of their looks. However, you tend to get attached to someone because of how they are. And when that happens, the feelings surpass everything else including looks. That is when you will find yourself liking and admiring everything bout him/her. Everything about the person turns out to be the cutest thing you ever seen.
And she chooses and hope to be in love with the average guy, like many of those she sees in tv... not the one with good looks, but the one with the shiny heart.
But I guess none that she met so far possess the shiny heart that she's waiting for...
