Chapter 22

It can be tiring for her, as the matter of fact it is very tiring for her… the journey and phrases that she has to go through in the process of healing her broken-heart. To be out of the bubble and start a new one. It is like as though there’s a very thin line in between or rather it’s like a crossroad or a maze or anything you want to call it. Situations and emotions can be real deceiving. One day you are okay and you thought that you are out of it entirely, but the next day you started to feel bad and wonders if you were even out of it in the first place.

She knew she will eventually be out of it, and she knew that she’s half way through. And so she got to be strong and keep her chin up and not to fall for his white lies again.

It was her girls-get-together time with her friends. They went for some window shopping to look-see-look-see, have a drink and listen to some live band music. It’s always nice and comforting for her to have her girlfriends around to hang out with and share their feelings and lend a shoulder to cry on for each other.

She was there for them and they were there for her. There’re just so many other types of problem out there in the world with so many different circumstances. She realizes that hers is definitely not the worst and so she should toughen up.

Life is full of colors, love is full of emos, humans are not perfect, and somehow in some way that is the beauty of life. Maybe what some of us really need in life are not really perfections but comfort and attention.

And she too is fitting in for her comfort level.

What is her level of comfort?

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Chapter 21

This has been harder than she thought it would be. The feeling of down and draggy can still be felt even on the next day. What is this feeling she question herself. She was puzzled by what she felt. She was so determine to let go and was so sure that she’s over it. If that is so then why is she affected by him? Is this just a temporary phrase. A normal phrase everyone had to go through in order to let go and move on. Does this feeling of annoyed, hurt, down, sadden mostly pain and uneasiness, normal for everyone? Did you ever doubt your decision of leaving? Did you ever wonder what is the “What if” of not leaving? Were you ever bothered by the dreams that you had the night before? Were you puzzled by what the intentions of the other person is?

For a moment there, she would like to convince herself that its only normal for someone to feel, react and wonders. And because its only normal for a human to feel that way, the sooner she can overcome this feelings of back and forth, the better her life will be. The truth is, she cant avoid any types of pain. She has to go through it and get over with it. till there is no more pain to be felt, only then it will not bother her. As much as one doesn’t wanna hit rock bottom in order to bounce back and stand strong, rock bottom really is the only remedy to make one totally get over something.

As much pain as there is for her to feel, she knows that its only going to make her stronger and live better.

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Chapter 20

This is harder than she thought it would be… its harder because she just need to go through the part where she has to accept the fact that everything that is been going about her ex will somehow rather be intertwine with hers in some ways or another.

She really thought it’s over and done with. Avoiding isn’t as easy as she hope it’ll be. She wishes for her not to speak of him anymore, not to have to deal with things that are related to him as much as she used to deal with… but here’s the truth… guess it’s never going to happen that way…

One way or another, anything and everything will still be there.

Everything was perfect for her… for a moment that is…

Everything was according to her way and she was really into moving on with her life. She has her own thing going on, her work is advancing and she’s happy with her surrounding and life. The life where she feels free to breath, no burden and pain poking through her heart and soul.

But he suddenly appears again out of nowhere… well technically he was never gone, but he wasn’t that daring to come near her. The most is only text and phone calls. Somehow, during the auspicious celebration and festival, he came to her house for a visit. What??? Long story cut short, he manages to make his way to her house to visit her sibs and parents. Yeah, they had no problem with him being a friend of mine, or friend of the family…. But then again, what was he thinking? What is the utter motive behind the visit? Was it purely out of respect? Which is highly doubtful, because it has been 3 years since they broke up and had he not once came to her house for any visits and why now? Was the motive behind it all is to hurt or annoy her? It was pure luck for her as she was out from home to get some stuff from the shop. At least she doesn’t have to deal with him being there, just have to deal with the fact that he was there.

Days later after that very day, she found out that he has also been speaking or seeing her circle of friends. What’s going on, why was he making effort to somehow be seen and be heard? Was he trying to make a new path in his life?

She did however been receiving 4 text message from him during this holiday festive season. All 4 messages were to seek for forgiveness. She being herself who doesn’t think bad about people and always trying to be positive, came to a conclusion… as much as she wanted to move on and open a new book… maybe he too wanted to find a closure to move on and open a new page…

She prefers to think about it that way. Wishing the rest of the things to goes smooth as she sails the wide sea of life.

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