Chapter 17

She is taking one step at a time. There are actually too many paths that one can choose in living life. She finally opens up her eyes and she sees that there’re so many people out there. Those who wanted to be her friend. Those whom she never seems to notice before. But the questions here really are, “How do you differentiate who and who? How do you assess before you even be friends or rather close friends?”. She’s not trying to be choosy or what not. But as a girl, it’s only fair that a girl should be careful (extra careful that is) in relating and opening up to others. There got to be some sort of a filtering mechanism. She knows that people might think that she’s trying to give it a hard try or try to pull off a little but really it’s not about being snobbish. It’s more of trying to protect herself from any sort of unnecessary pain and embarrassment. She has gone through some occasions that somewhat in a way created some form of biasness when it comes to guys who wanted to come near her.

There was once, this guy whom she know from her previous work place was trying to get close to her, he was trying so hard, (i.e. texting, emailing, bumping into her and all sort of ways) he even asked her out more or less on a date but she want ready to accept new friends at that time. She was not into socializing rather she was D’ Queen of Emo, and so she rejected his offer for dates. Only 3 months later she found out that the guy had just gotten married. “What?!” she just couldn’t believe it. He was just asking her out like really trying out his luck and he’s now married?
The one thing that she’s annoyed is not the fact that he’s married, she couldn’t care less about him being married. If you carefully think back, normal duration of time taken for preparation to get married is 6 months to a year and the least is 3 months before wedding date. And so rationally even if he is not engaged or even if he has not set the date for his wedding at that time which is 3 months ago, he must have been dating his wife as a couple (girlfriend boyfriend) right??? And he was asking her out around the same time??? That is what really pissed her off. How dirty and low can he be, he just grossed her out.

And she was thinking to herself, it’s her luck to not give a face to that guy in the first place. Who knows what would be the consequences of the overall situation had she given in and went out with him. She would be fooled and lied to. See that’s among some of the instances that lead her to being extra careful when it comes to guys. Most are not genuinely real in being friends. Most are just a conned fella. Not all but most. To eventually accidently having met or find the selected ones are gonna be quite a ride for her.

You surely must have heard of that saying on how you have to kiss a few frogs before you get to kiss your very own Prince Charming…

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